30 August 2013

I'm Angry!

I'm back in my house in the Netherlands for the weekend (in case you missed the news, I'm living temporarily in southern Belgium).   I had decided to make the trip up here even before I found out I needed to check on some issues at the new building (so I can claim this as an official work trip) and before I realized that Monday is a US holiday. So I'm here until Tuesday morning. 

It was really nice coming back here today but it also made me angry.  I don't want to leave! I've only lived in 3 other places as long as or longer than I've lived here and one of those was the house I grew up in (where my parents still live). And I love it here.  Never mind the fact that I've been here longer than expected.  I don't think I should have to leave.  It's not my fault that there's no more work for me here.  I don't see why that should mean I can't stay! I'm really not happy with this whole leaving situation. I've known it was coming for a while but that hasn't made it any easier.  I tried throwing a 3-year old-style tantrum but it didn't seem to change the fact that I have less than 2 months left here. 

I'm. Not. Ready.  I will not be ready regardless of how much time elapses.  I do NOT want to leave!

...tantruming resumes...


  1. Unfortunately, I know exactly what you are talking about. We lived in a wonderful place for 6 years and had to leave. If I'd know what would be waiting for me, I would not have left. 25 years in a place that doesn't accept us is not fun. I want to leave and only see everyone else going.

    Maybe that is a little help.


  2. I would be angry too! Tantrum on I say, tantrum on!