TORSCHLUSSPANIK (German) - The feeling that time is passing and the chance to do things is slipping away. Literally 'gate-closing panic'.
I've known this feeling a number of times but didn't know that there was a word for it. I should have known. The Germans have a word for everything.
Living abroad but knowing it's for a limited time invokes this feeling a lot. I've written before about finding a balance between normal, daily life and the desire to see and do as much as possible while I'm here. As I approach the end of my 2nd year (of a 3-year assignment) I start to panic! There are still SO many places I want to go and things I want to do.
My first year here was rough and I didn't do as much travel as I would have but the time with the dogs is irreplaceable. The second year...
I took three trips to the US for training classes. I got to see my family, visit my sister, see some friends I haven't seen for 5 and 10 years, visit my favorite rescue...
I went to Athens
I met up with Mom and Gran in Lisbon
I stopped in Seville for a few days and fell in love with the city!
I took a last-minute whirlwind trip to London to see Hamilton (I'm going to see it again in 2 weeks but that trip has been planned since the spring). It was the first time I've visited London when it didn't pour rain :D And no one stole my wallet and passport so it still isn't my favorite place but I might consider releasing my great dislike of the city.
|Yes, it's as good as you've heard it is!!!|
I went to nearby Lake Garda...it's hard to believe it took so long to visit something so close
|Montenegro (Spanish for Black Mountains)...interesting because Montenegro does not border Spain and was never under Spanish occupation or rule...is stunningly beautiful!|
My brother and his friend just visited and we went to several places in the south of Italy
|First we climbed Vesuvius (there in the background) and then checked out the ruins of Herculaneum.|
I realize that sounds like a lot of travel but with so many options so close by it doesn't' feel like much. I am fully aware of how elite/entitled/spoiled that sounds.
I just signed a two-year extension so now I have three years remaining. But the list of places I want to go is looooooong! So I'm sure I won't be able to shake the feeling of TORSCHLUSSPANIK.
How about you? Do you suffer from torschlusspanik?